2013-05-09 Changing Horizons
I've been pondering for a couple weeks now trying to think of a topic that I'd enjoy writing about as my first blog entry. I didn't want to write just for the sake of writing, but it was a bit bothersome to me that of all the things going on in my world, I couldn't come up with one worthy thing to write a few paragraphs about. I wanted it to mean something to me, and through that notion I believe that my written thoughts would deeply resonate with someone else too. It just hit me out of left field as I was enjoying my day off at home - I've had an epiphany recently that I was itching to share with those closest to me.. I recently met a group of travellers in Whistler who opened up my eyes to the wonderment of having frequently changing horizons. Most were from Australia (figures, I know) but there were also a few from England, Norway, and even other parts of Canada.
Travelling is always something that I've wanted to do in my life, yet I've given up several trips over the years so I could better myself as an actor. Chasing the dream ain't cheap, especially when you're paying for everything biz-related yourself (among many other expenses) from the age of 16 onwards. My train of thought was to take as many classes as I could and do my best to establish myself as prominently as possible in the Vancouver market while I was young enough to do it. Providing everything worked out in my favour (ha, a girl can dream), I would one day reap the fruits of my labour and then later on in life, I could revisit the drawing board and map out my journeys to different parts of the globe.
There have been times where I've felt a bit stuck here in Vancouver, the old 'ball and chain' if you will, in regards to staying here and working hard to grow a career for myself as an actor. Long stretches of time often pass by where there is very little reward from the industry in terms of jobs, despite countless auditions over the years, and the devil on my shoulder starts to inquire why I put in so much time, effort, will, and determination to be a great artist when I seem to get very little out of it in the end (aside from my own self-gratification that I simply do the best that I can.) The reason for that is simply because I love to act and I was meant to be an entertainer. I know that. But I've recently realized that another reason this question pops up from time to time is because I haven't found balance in my life in terms of striving for my goals professionally, and living my life leisurely. I didn't realize that I've had this gaping void inside me, craving to see the world. I was always afraid that if I left Vancouver, even if just for a couple weeks, I might miss the opportunity to audition for the role that might just be the break that I've been hoping and preparing for.
Something my new-found travelling comrades have enlightened me with is a rejuvenated, fearless sense of adventure. I've always been the type of person who's up for just about anything - hiking mountains, bungee jumping, running in Tough Mudder, buying the Guinness Book of World Records most expensive hot dog on the planet ($100 Dragon Dog aka EPIC) but with travelling, those plans were always delayed to another time. A later date. A more convenient year. Well damn, I'm tired of talking about it with no follow-through, and this is the year it's actually happening. In order to be an actor, to live in someone else's shoes, to take on another life - you have to live your OWN life to its greatest extent and gather those experiences to use as your tools to portray another person. If anything, exploring the world away from Vancouver isn't me losing an opportunity at an audition, it's me gaining another freckle of wisdom to layer onto a character in the future.
Thanks to the friendships I've made with those top-tier folks in Whistler - most who have already moved on to other parts of the world - along with much appreciated words of encouragement from fellow artists, I now have my plane ticket to Vegas booked (you gotta do it at least once) and will be going to New Zealand/Australia for a month later this year. In addition to that, I'm already planning a trip to Poland and Scandinavia (Denmark, Norway & Sweden) for next summer. It's happening. Follow *all* your dreams!